EMDR Update

I forgot to write about how EMDR went this week.  I really think I'm warming up to the idea.  This appointment went really well and I swear I came out of there feeling a little better about myself. She showed me the different tools used in EMDR including eye-scan and audio scan (to see what some of the tools look like, check out this). 

We actually started EMDR to work on some self-esteem issues I have.  I held these two pulsing tablets in either hand and they vibrated back and forth while I talked.  She had me write down four words she'd use to describe me from the short time we've been meeting. 

I can't remember the fourth word for the life of me, but the other three were "Intelligent/self care," "spontaneous" and "courageous."  Then, holding the tablets in my hands while they vibrated, she had me talk to her about examples of when I was these words.  It was weird doing it because, first of all, it was distracting with the pulsing in my hands back and forth, but also because I wouldn't normally describe myself in those terms, and even after talking about it "normally" without the tactile stimulation, I wouldn't necessarily believe that about myself, I left the appointment feeling lighter, and like I said, a little better about myself. 

I think I'm starting to realize that my previous ambivalence about this kind of therapy was simply a defense-mechanism and that maybe if I just continue to work it and accept this as a valid form of healing, this could really benefit me.  I hate to admit it, but I'm kind of hooked and I'm really looking forward to my next appointment.